Saturday, February 26, 2011

perfectly imperfect


Between this snowy New York winter and my busy schedule, I've fallen short on my half-marathon training plan. Usually exercise endorphins are my high of choice, but lately all I've wanted to do is lounge in my pajamas and meet friends for beers. But with the NYC race less than a month away, I attempted to get my rear in gear this week: I set the alarm early. I charged my Garmin. And then...I slept in. In my younger days, I would have been disappointed or made up for it with an evening run in the frigid temps. Now that I'm definitely older and arguably wiser, I've come to realize that there's no need to be so tough on myself. I don't know if it's because I live in such an intense city (New York) and work in such a type-A industry (media), but there's a certain amount of pressure to be smart, successful, slim, attractive, interesting, well-groomed, and stylish. In other words: perfect. And while I agree whole-heartedly that you should aim high, it shouldn't come at the expense of your happiness or sanity. So here's my call to myself and all women: Cut yourself some slack. You're doing your best, and that's enough.

Monday, February 21, 2011

6 things...



...I did this week:

1. Went for drinks and woke up with a crazy hangover from three glasses of wine. Holy geez. Is this a side effect of being in your 30s?
2. Had two terrific phone dates with Lisa and Amie. New resolution of the year: Keep in regular touch with out-of-town friends.
3. Ran 10 miles in super-gusty wind. I almost blew off the Williamsburg Bridge.
4. Drank, laughed, and hugged at Bex's going away party. I'm thrilled for her, but sad for us. 2011—year of change.
5. Landed a few freelance pieces. Maybe I won't wind up in a cardboard box. Phew!
6. Worked around the clock this weekend, except for a few parties. Soon, soon...I'll be free.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

mom talk


I seriously just had this conversation with my adorable mom:

Me: Hey, mom. Did I tell you I quit my job?
Mom: No. Really?
Me: Yes. I'm going to be a freelance writer and work from home.
Mom: Really? How from home?
Me: I'll be writing, but from my house!
Mom: Oh. I don't know what the young kids are doing. You know best. When are you going to have baby?

Love.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

my funny valentine


Someone once told me that every couple has their own language, peppered with inside jokes, pet names, and code words. It's so true. Erik and I mostly have silly rituals, so ridiculous that he would probably murder me if he ever found out that I blogged about them. (They involve a lot of dancing.) So I'll just write about a favorite little one that occurred this past weekend: Whenever Erik goes out of town, I always say, "Don't forget about me!" To which he always replies, "How can I forget about you? Your face appears every time I close my eyes." Swoon. I would have never imagined that I'd end up with a clothing designer who never exercises and thrives on the big city life, but I'm so grateful I did. Finding Erik is the best thing that ever happened to me.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

little letters


Dear Sundays,
Soon I won't have to work through you anymore. You'll be mine again!

Dear Magic trade show,
It kinda stinks that you're held on Valentine's Day every single year. I miss my love.

Dear Nicaragua,
I'm super-excited to visit you and surf your waves.

Dear Bloomingdales,
Thank you for providing me with a $70 dressy wedding outfit, complete with cardigan and shoes.

Dear 2011,
You rock! Just heard lovely Meg and Brian are expecting. Hello, BEST YEAR EVER.

i love love


Remember when I said I wasn't a big fan of weddings? I take it all back. Last night, I went to my friend Jenna's gorgeous event. It was beautiful in every way—lovely decor, breathtaking bride, handsome groom. But what had me in tears was the look on Dino's face as Jenna walked down the aisle. It was so full of awe and adoration, I thought his heart was just going to burst out of his chest. Also, since my own handsome boyfriend is away on business, I got a birds'-eye view of the dance floor. There's something about the way a couple looks at each other when swaying to the soft strains of Ella Fitzgerald that makes my heart sing. I just love seeing my friends so happy.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

a new chapter


In my life, I've up and quit a total of three jobs. The first was at the mall's pizza place, because the manager was a really creepy old guy who tried to promise me the world—and 20 percent discounts at the GAP. The next was my first full-time gig, which involved an exhausting 4-hour subway-train-van commute daily. But giving notice at my current job was a exponentially harder: I enjoy what I do, adore my co-workers, and love the new head honcho. Those things, along with the fact that I'm a fan of the whole steady-paycheck-and-health-insurance thing, made my decision incredibly tough. So why did I do it? Four words: You only live once. It's easy for me to lose myself in the day-to-day stuff, and let my daily routine interfere with all the things I want to do before I die. Seeing my parents get sick and friends pass away has made me realize that the present is really all you know for sure, so you have to treasure it. Trading in security for uncertainty is scary, but it's also exciting and fun, and it makes me grateful that I'm alive.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

simply happy


I just came home from the best night. Glenna, Tony, and Kenny spearheaded a benefit comedy show—and I jumped on to help them. It was so, so much fun. My sides hurt from laughing, and we raised a chunk of cash for awesome causes. It's late, but I had to blog about this moment of happiness and contentment to remind myself, later down the road when things might get rough or frustrating, that I definitely made the right life choice. Hands down. Because this lightness, this joy filling my entire being? You can't put a price on it—it's worth so much more than any paycheck.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

reality check




Today I had a black cloud over my head. (I can't believe they said that! How annoying! Poor me!) But after I got home and saw the images of the turmoil in Egypt on CNN, I was instantly humbled. With all my quitting and life changing, I've been a little (okay, a lot) self-obsessed as of late. But watching those people marching in Liberation Square reminded me of the great scope and the great bravery of the world beyond my little fortunate bubble. The injustices happening there right now take my breath away, and I'm holding the warm, wonderful Egyptian people in my heart.

Monday, February 7, 2011

6 things... (life changing edition)


...I did this week:

1. Flew home from a glorious San Fran weekend with my brother, his fiance, our cousin, and friends. I'm a lucky girl to be part of such a wonderful group.
2. QUIT MY JOB. In that one move, I accomplished three of my 2011 resolutions and set myself up to tick off at least five of my life's to-do list in the next year! The whole process of deciding and going through with it was absolutely petrifying, but it was so worth it. I'm just filled with happiness and excitement from head-to-toe.
3. Celebrated my announcement with champagne, snow, chalet, mulled wine, and 11 of the most awesome people ever. The whole scene makes me feel so warm and fuzzy.
4. Snowboarded through a crazy foggy raincloud that was straight out of the Chronicles of Narnia. I half expected Mr. Fawn to greet us at the top of the lift.
5. Came home and snuggled with the best boyfriend and cat ever.
6. Woke up at 6 a.m. to prep for a segment, appeared on TV, and worked until 7:30 p.m. Now I'm going to study until bedtime in order to wake up tomorrow at 5 a.m. for another segment and crazy deadline/shipping day. I'm not going to miss this kind of grind at all. Whee!!!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

treasured moments



There are just some times in life when you stop and think, "This is awesome." That's how I felt this weekend, from start to finish. A gang of us headed to the chalet for a snowboarding/ski weekend at Plattekill Mountain. The slopes were misty and empty, and I got into the groove of carving down the green slope. Anthony cooked an insane feast of pulled pork, fennel salad, and poached pears. We played a hilarious game of a taboo- and charades-like celebrity. The girls won a spirited game of flip cup. Sweet Sue's was scrumptious as usual. At one point, I realized that my cheeks hurt because I had been smiling and laughing so much. It was just all so perfect—a wonderful way to celebrate!

Friday, February 4, 2011

giving notice


You guys, I did it. I quit my job today to venture into the great unknown! It's both terrifying and exciting, and I can't wait for my act two. I'll post more on my decision later, but I've got to hop in a car and head off to a weekend of snowboarding!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

good fortune


To pass the time while I was snowed in at my parents' house, I wound up watching Eat Pray Love. The movie was enjoyable—full of pretty shots and gleaming teeth—but forgettable, save for one scene: when Julia Roberts' character gets her fortune told by a wizened old Indonesian man. It struck a chord, because I had a similar experience on a vacation to Thailand. After my pal Lisa and I toured a brightly colored temple, we each sat down with a supposedly infamous Thai prophecy, who spelled out our futures; a translator relayed his words to us. Since my only previous experience was with a East Village gypsy-type with pleasant, generic statements, the tiny man's first statement shook me. After asking if I was going to marry my live-in boyfriend at the time who I was madly in love with (having gone so far to name our unborn children), he vehemently shook his head no. I asked again, to the same response. After that, I brushed off his authenticity, but not so long ago, I found the crumpled sheet with the translator's notes: I'd meet my soul mate in my late 20s and have three (!!) kids in my 30s. I wouldn't have a desk job, but spend a lot of time traveling the world. And although I'd never be rich, I'd never be left wanting. So...the old man's fortune? I'll take it, thanks!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

day dreams


They're predicting even more snow this week, so I'm just going to close my eyes and imagine that I'm at the beach. The silver lining is that I'm headed with some homies to the chalet for a weekend of snowboarding on Friday! Fresh powder means that I'll basically fall into a pillow of snow, right? Right.

Photo: Sarah at Long Beach Island